Lele is my new favourite group. They really blew me away yesterday at Kinanda. I am in loveeeeeeeeeee. They are so humble and cool. They showed interest in performing at our event and so crossing fingers that they do….Kinanda was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee and Mafikizolo at Blankests next week better blow the sky away because that is our next destination. I am so loving my life right now!!!!!!!!!!
Today was a day which started as it meant to continue and my spirits and whole persona matched it. For sure by midmorning a spanner was thrown in but I thank God for that. I thank God for my friend all the way down in South Africa, my friend who works near me and gets to receive numerous phone calls from me, my housemate who is always an encouraging brook , my friend who loves the very thing that I feel I must walk away from and most of all my mother for standing up for me and believing in me so fiercely. Thank you Lord for loving on me through these people. Lord I can’t see clearly and my flesh is in tears so my your spirit talk to my spirit to remind me that you are with me and it is well.
There will be mountains that I will have to climb
And there will be battles that I will have to fight
But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide
But how do I expect to win if I never try.
I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me
Never said there wouldn't be trials
Never said I wouldn't fall
Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go
But when my back is against the wall
And I feel all hope is gone,
I'll just lift my head up to the sky
And say help me to be strong
I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me
[Hook:]
I know you didn't bring me out here to leave me lonely
Even when I can't see clearly
I know that you are with me(so I can't)
I just can't give up now
I've come too far from where I started from
Nobody told me the road would be easy
and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me
I know I will be accused of ranting but this is what I feel as regards sharing information. I have discovered that my friends and mostly female friends think it’s ok to share private information with their significant others. I have seen it happen enough times with my close friends and never once have I confronted them but sit in silence wondering when I gave the ok for my business to be shared. I feel that if I have a secret child, secret lover, secret fetish, abortion, miscarriage, the people I am having sex with, family fall out, whom I’m cheating on or in love with or not, or my debt etc….think of any private thing you would not want out there…it is not ok for my friend to share the same with their significant other. I have had boyfriends and I did not share my friends stories with them. It amazes me how I can get so upset so much later after so many instances of this. Weirdly enough this is no particular incidence or person that has trigger this outburst but I almost feel like I cannot trust my friends.
So my full face book rant/status update :\
This is to ALL my friends. Male and Female. Whatever I share with you that is private kindly keep it so and your boyfriend, man, husband, wife, girlfriend and partners are NOT exempt from this rule. The rule of thumb is if I do not want to my mother to know then I SURE AS HELL do not want the above listed people knowing it and you telling me you told them does NOT ratify or make it ok. They are YOUR significant other and NOT MINE no matter how friendly I may be with them. So either we follow the rule of thumb or two scenarios. You tell me you are one of those couples who share everything upon which our only discussion should be the weather or for everything I find out you shared without my EXPRESS AND EXPLICIT go ahead I share any private information I deem equal to what you have shared with two people you would NOT want me to share that information. I am sure we are crystal clear
Does anyone get me? Or we should just be ok with people sharing information about us to their significant others?
Fashion, a prevailing mode of expression. I love that definition of fashion as an aspect of style. Yesterday I came across a quote by Isaac Mizrahi on ted talks which amused me. He said that style makes you feel so great because it takes your mind of the fact that you are going to die. That said and done I love fashion and finally I am doing something about it. I have committed to holding a fashion event on my birthday which is roughly 36 days away. I told my housemate that if I do this, I can do anything. I honestly believe that as the fear of starting has held me immobile for so long it’s not even funny. I am alive again. I am living and stressing and worrying and planning and praying and the ideas are praying in by the droves. God is amazing and indeed faithful. He is loving on me.
Watch this space. I am about to change the status quo
I am currently devouring Azar Nafisi’s Reading Lolita in Tehran and it’s inspired me to make a commitment to read some of the best written or rather interesting classical books that shape our literature.
Next month is my birthday and for the next year I want to read the following great books:
1. War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy 
2. Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov ![Lolita [Book]](cid:image002.jpg@01CC573C.8ED0BAC0)
3. F. Scott Fitzgerald s classic novel The Great Gatsby ![<b>The great Gatsby</b>: the limits of wonder [Book]](cid:image003.jpg@01CC573C.8ED0BAC0)
4. A Farewell to Arms by Ernest Hemingway ![A farewell to arms [Book]](cid:image004.jpg@01CC573D.9EAD4980)
5. In God's Name by David Yallop 
6. Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad 
7. Alice's Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll 
8. Arrow of God by Chinua Achebe 
9. To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee 
10. One Thousand and One Nights 
11. Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert 
12. Ulysses by James Joyce 
13. Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy 
14. Not Yet
Uhuru The Autobiography of Oginga Odinga 
15. 1984 by George Orwell 
16. The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde 
17. The Master and Margarita by by Mikhail Bulgakov 
18. Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand 
19. The Art of Warfare by Sun Tzu 
20. East of Eden by John Steinbeck
It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone and nothing's changed at all
Wasn't I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that I've been running from
Let me feel
I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall even if I hit the ground
And if I cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived just a little
I watched Bridesmaid and I liked it a lot. I must admit Melissa McCarthy should win a n award for her performance. She always plays these feminine roles but she brought it down. As one person said, ‘Melissa McCarthy gave the bravest, most batshit, most balls-out, and hilarious performance of the year in 'Bridesmaids.'
I promised Sheila and Nthenya that I would begin to write again as I reduce my reading. I did not journal this weekend but I promise to do so before we next meet. I told them how is topped journaling because it became too painful and then a habit not to do so. Nonetheless I am seeking clarity in my life and there is something Nthenya said that my mind seems cluttered with all these thoughts and ideas and until I find a way of offloading it, I will not be able to have that clarity is eek. The answers I seek are probably within me but with all the information getting in and no outlet it’s almost a futile exercise. I agree as I feel like my life is some loop going on and on with no distinct direction.
I was contemplating giving on something I had started but had to stop because of my hectic work schedule. Last week Julian taught us about moving from ‘A HAVE TO’ attitude to ‘A WANT TO’ attitude. I want to complete what is started and I want to do it with the initial motive and enthusiasm that I had.
So this doesn’t necessarily count as the writing I was supposed to do but it certainly helps. Which reminds me of a conversation I had with my friend. We are planning on going to Pemba Island at the end of the year. I was like the first champion of the whole idea and full of such faith that somehow we could do it but these last two weeks I had allowed doubts to get in and I couldn’t help but wonder if I was overreaching but over the weekend my friend reassured me with such confidence that come new year we will be in Pemba…and who I’m I to doubt. So that is one specific thing I am praying and believing that God will just make a way. The rest may be hazy and mixed up but this one thing….
Big Brother is over. It was about time. I was tickled silly to read all the tweets on peep’s reaction to the result. Tickled silly.
Let me begin my fabulous week