Divine creativity equals unusual me

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

RIGHT NOW WHAT THIS PERSON IS MAKING ME FEEL IS A DESIRE TO COMMIT MURDER!!!!1

‘I came by again and saw you, saw that you were ready for love and a lover. I took care of you, dressed you and protected you. I promised you my love and entered the covenant of marriage with you. I, God, the Master, gave my word. You became mine.” ~ Ez. 16:8 MSG

“You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first.” ~Rev. 2:4-5 NIV

“Let your religion be less of a theory and more of a love affair.”

A wild affair that ravages the mind, all thoughts captive to the Love, this all-consuming romance that leaves you starved for that touch, hungry for His voice, famished for more of His being that makes the being all real.

Every darkened crevice
Every hidden place
Every secret that’s inside of me
Though I run from You
I don’t get very far
In my weakness You speak tenderly

You heal this heart of stone
I am not my own

I am Yours....

How can I resist a perfect love like this?
It’s like sunshine and the smell of spring
When I’m covered in Your forgiveness
God, it’s overwhelming

You have called me out of shadows....
Out of darkness into light....
Hemmed in by the hands of mercy....
I’m completely satisfied

Today is our first day volunteering for junior Achievement. Everyone has been trying to like scare me or give me all this negative news and all but I am calm. Surprisingly so, but nonetheless I am calm. I will wait and see. I did dress up to be both professional yet still hip.lol. On Saturday I start training for Kimbilio-call centre for battered women. Somehow the hope-to-do list is slowly but surely coming to life. For that I am grateful. I found out that a couple I know are expecting. They are at a point when this is an such a big shake up. A year from now it would be so welcome but right now it’s this big volcano. That said and done God is faithful. He will walk with them. Today is also my housemates birthday. YAY! Dinner at Alan Bobbie’s Bistro. Heart! heart! Two Sundays ago we had a special service for widows where we basically blessed widows by doing three to four months worth of shopping for them and they also got cash and some who had young kids got school fees. During the service there was a song which really touched my heart. I recognized Nicol Sponberg’s voice but could not find the song.  Yesterday I heard it on radio. It’s by Selah and it’s called ‘Part the waters’.

I Need Thee Every Hour
Words by Annie Hawks, Robert Lowry; Music by Robert Lowry; Arrangement by Nicol Sponberg, Allan Hall

When I think I'm going under, part the waters, Lord
When I feel the waves around me, calm the sea
When I cry for help, oh, hear me, Lord and hold out Your hand
Touch my life
Still the raging storm in me

I need Thee every hour, most gracious Lord;
No tender voice like Thine can peace afford.

Refrain

I need Thee, O I need Thee;
Every hour I need Thee;
O bless me now, my Savior,
I come to Thee.

I need Thee every hour, in joy or pain;
Come quickly and abide, or life is in vain.

I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Vs 1

Its 3:00 in the morning and there's a war raging deep inside of me, ay, ay.
One half wants to go to sleep the other half wants to feed the lust in me,
such a dirty game, the dirty games that we play so I.
Reach for the remote control start flicking through the channels to see what I can see, and before I found it my dirty this is what I heard
You supposed to be a man of God, how come you acting like you don't believe in me
Lord my will is weak, so father this is what I pray, so I said.

Hook

Lord Jesus will you keep my mind, Lord Jesus will you keep my mind,

Lord Jesus will you keep my mind, cause I'm weak in the flesh I'm about to wild out (2x)

Vs 2

It's the top of the month and the rent is due, so I guess I gotta get on the grind
Another week before I get my last check cause I just lost my 9 to 5 so I.
Go into survival mode and I'm looking for some cheese to make, I don't know if this change is good but dirty I got bills to pay.

The lights are off and the food is gone and I'm starting to break cause I can't seem to see the light of day.
I know you're my provider but my faiths on fire and I need your guidance or this house will burn down
Lest you send your grace, so father this is what I pray and I said

Hook

Bridge

I know the flesh is a beast but we must trust him with every little thing
We know his word is the truth so we must trust him in everything we do (2x)

Talk

Rap (Thi'sl)

I can tell the way that mommy moving, she like them boys that do that gangsta music
She wish we did it like the gangstas do it, but we ain't gangstas it's the cross we movin
I can tell by the way she groovin she tryin to hypnotize me by the way she movin
I'm like woa momma what you doing, Lord help me temptations brewing
I'm like maybe I could, I should, I can't, like maybe it's good, I could, I aint
Lord help me to keep my mind, baby girl drippin honey Lord plus she fine
I'm like maybe I could, I should, I can't
Like mommy it's good, I'm cool, I can't
Lord Jesus will you keep my mind cause you know that my flesh really wants to wild out

Hook (2x)

I have come to understand that Jesus views us as His friend and He wants to spend time with us.

 We are depriving Him of His time when we put Him aside for the urgent.

An interesting thing happens when we make prayer a priority: Urgent things seem to wane as we focus on Him. He makes all these other things fall into place.

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now, God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

Tears. I am working while weeping silently. I am so overwhelmed with work. The more I do the more it comes in and the pressure is ever there. The whole moving houses has become so complicated. It’s like there are more and more bills while the money is less and less. I feel so inadequate. I walk with that knowledge. As knowledge than in my inner self I know is a lie but my circumstance right now bellow to me to be true. Sadly I have stopped talking to the One I desperately need to be talking o. I hope he hears the language of tears and fears.

Two of my friends sent me emails that really touched my heart. To someone else they may think it’s silly but to me …lifeline

“There was a time when I used to worry so much at night I  couldn’t sleep them someone told me that before u go to bed, tell God your giving all the burdens you’ve carried the whole day back to him to carry for you so that u can rest...I know it sounds silly but imagine it used to work so please try sawa?. In the morning the sun will shine and I promise it will be a much better day.”

“Hey gal, said a prayer out loud for you and though I can’t begin to imagine how it's like to be so crazy busy but He knows and so you are in fairly good hands with Him on that one. If you get a chance to, look at the character of God as revealed in Is. 40:12 and 13 and that same God is in charge of this situation.”

Pinned on my wall is a verse Isaiah 41:13.

Isaiah 40:12-13

 ¹² Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand,
   or with the breadth of his hand marked off the heavens?
Who has held the dust of the earth in a basket,
   or weighed the mountains on the scales
   and the hills in a balance?
¹³ Who can fathom the Spirit^[a] of the LORD,
   or instruct the LORD as his counselor?

Isaiah 41:13-14

¹³ For I am the LORD your God
   who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
   I will help you.
¹⁴ Do not be afraid, you worm Jacob,
   little Israel, do not fear,
for I myself will help you,” declares the LORD,
   your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel

The song that comes to mind is Casting Crowns Stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

*Chorus*
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is CONVINCING
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Chorus x2

Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small