Last year my cousin brought me the best gift hat he has given me in years....music...a whole variety of it.I really begun to appreciate the songs when all i had was myself and my thoughts to keep me company. Below are some lyrics to some of my favourite songs that i would listen to as i walked in my neighbourhood trying to figure out if it would ever get better...or if tomorrow would ever come.

The first is by bethany dillon who has become a favourite. Its called beautiful.When i started this blog the first entry was about hating on wachira......lets just say that at some point last year he really meant alot and i thought things would go differently but alas like a double edged sword he also caused me alot of doubts....at some point i wondered if i would ever be enough.....enough everything......beautiful enough,intelligent enough,mature enough,funny enough,kind enough....and it wasnt just coz of him that i wondered all these but rather cz of where i was at that point in my life. So the line that goes.....i used to be so unique...now am only skin deep....well it says alot...but Thank God...i realized that...my circumstance does not define me.....trials dont come to test my faith but rather to teach me faith!!
"Beautiful"

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

[Chorus]
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory

[Chorus]

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful