am sure you are all wondering why the angela jolie pics? well am not a fan...in fact i think she is despicable...but i want to talk about Bathsheba whom i am also not a fan of.....am reading lineage of grace by Francine Rivers. I am a very judgmental person coz i just cannot empathize or sympathize with Bathsheba.....i don't think she alone was the one to blame but to me no excuse could be good enough for her conduct....when i first did a bible study of Rahab as a presentation..i really could relate with her,...am not a prostitute but for some reason i could live with her tale while as for Bathsheba...truth be told the first time i read about her when i was about 10years old...i detested her..for what kind of a woman was this....hence my saying am very judgmental....the only reason i took note of her was because from as far as i could remember i would read the story of David over and over....it fascinated me so much..from when i was 9years old reading my yellow book titled "my book of bible stories"...and whatever David did i could forgive or excuse...cz to me he was so fascinating and later on absorbing his passion for God endeared him to me..while Bathsheba was like a fly to be whisked off or ignored. I read her story as retold by Francine rivers,....its not an easy story to read...i don't want to do the bs part but i will have to....in the book it shows her as having loved David from when she was a kid and hence excusing it all...to me that doesnt wash...last week i was watching Gilmore Girls....a show i ADORE....when they showed how Rory slept with Dean...and she was saying how he was hers first a and he wasnt happy with the wife hence it excused whatever they did....at first i kinda got where she was coming from....yaani i love that show so much..that when it ended with her weeping...i went to bed so sad....weird thing i could understand where she is coming from and still be able to say its wrong but with bathsheba...even writing her name is hard...i dont like her...i mean her hubby died cz of what she and david did..and in the book it says he knew...imagine the pain and betrayal he felt....i know we are human and prone to sin...but i dont know why i am so harsh in my jugement of this woman....after all i am a sinner and have done so many awful things that am equally deserving judgement but its just how i feel....it made me think of alot of situations....we are all vulnerable....now we use petty excuses to justify whats wrong.....we choose the easy road instead of the right way....easy,convenient,faster and more comfortable does not always mean or equate right.
I am very judgmental...isee things in such black and white,,,,but mostly in ternms of others what about me? what if God chose to use that yardstick?where would i be?i need to learn mercy....thinking about paul...yaani iwas so repulsed by evrything he said that night that i couldnt bear to think iever thought i liked him....all i could think was you messed up person...you person under sexual bondage...depart from me...well whats the christian way?i wont lie...am not planning to be his bossom buddy...God in His word says that in leading the sinful brother be careful not to fall in the same pitfall...butin my view of him..i could show mercy..i could pray for him knowing that in God's eyes that's still his son.
I need to learn mercy even as i am enetering into more leadership roles for servanthood is not about lording people but understanding them and influencing them towards the vision. As i meditate on bathsheba...i ask God to teach me..for honestly it was a hard story to read.am out