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i found this link and it has such interesting stuff on fashion,design etc...so for all ya fashion freaks...some dude called me a fashion freak,,,,whatever...i like looking good but am not addicted to fashion rules and fads...but nonetheless its a good site. so enjoy. http://thecoveted.blogspot.com/

Usually i wouldnt post forwards but this one is important. I sent iit to a close friend of mine some time back and she sent it back to me today and i realized that it says alot of things which we all need to know as ladies...so there can never be too much education..especially on these creatures called men....incidentally as iwas reading one of the books on women and the law i came across an interesting quote. "Human beings are animals,albeit of a certain kind" it just amused me....anyway i digress.....fwd or no fwd whoever who wrote the words below hit it on the nail.


IF A MAN WANTS YOU



If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has
more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord!? If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships..........................there is nothing cute about
baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists
of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr.. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your
always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another
RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT..............

This is another unstructured post but this being my blog....who gives a penny? I have been so busy trying to beat deadlines for my term papers....i only have two left and they are due a week after my last paper so it lets me concentrate on my exams.i keep looking at the last post and laughing cz its like the wind...now its here....then its gone....i actually watched the episode from which that picture of lorelai and luke were taken...interesting....as one of my closest pals said juzi...men are from pluto!...leave a room wide open for them to enter...they hesitate or they refuse to enter...shut the dooor and sudennly its imperative that they enter that room!That said there is a room i shut and suddenly someone seems curious...its laughable....well another possibility has entered the equation..and you know what they say....bygones are bygones.
I finally realized that given time i could become a football addict....on sunday i was to go on a date where ver i would like and i found myself saying lets go somewhere where we can watch the manu game!!This was me!!!not being coerced or blackmailed or cajoled!!no i really wanted to watch the match...so dude agreed...and no i wasnt doing it to impress the dude...i dint even know he likes football till he started cheering for man-useless!needless to say i had a ball!! you should have seen us laughing like children and we still talked as wewatched the game....yaani when i saw the three goals i just thought...now we will never cath up...imagine i really cared!But i couldnt watch the arsenal game as we had to have a real date before i headed home...but mani had a fab weekend...and no pressure...which reminds me...why do people do group dates???eeich!! i so do not get those things.....one of my friends was so pissed last week when she met this dude and he was with his pals who one who was with his chic....apparently she thought it would be just the two of them..!I was telling her you teach people how to treat you and you. as the girl sets the pace and tone of the relationship or dating game...what do u mean you ask me to meet you and i get you with your pals and i wasnt informed?Rubbish!i told her that all these dudes i had told her about...there is none that that she had nver met..not coz am one of hose perpetually insecure chics who need intrigues to keep a dude...but coz i organise my life,friends and dudes in a mannerthat works for me..when it istime for my gals then its their time...when its time for my uni pals...time for my back-then pals...my highschool pals...church pals..tight pals....acquatances....dudes am seeing etc....why should they mingle...if they happen to meet cool ...but otherwise am perfectly comfortable when tnhey stay in compartments....moreover..there is no dude who has ever pulled a stunt like that on me....yaani i would just walk out....if we agreed that iwas to meet your pals then its cool. My friend then went on to say how this always happens and more so with one of this dude's pals...even when they are alone on a date..he keps calling teling the guy how they should meet etc!i was just sitting there in shock!Like what crap is that? Either you want to be with me or you dont!You organise your life well to make time for me and time for your boys! When iwas in high school i dated this guy was in this crew...all i'd ever hear is "me and my boys"...i got so sick and tired of that phrase thjat i promised myself NEVER AGAIN! and am glad i kept that promise...What nonsense!!

i am doing exams next week ! So it means marathon reading!You know how they say that if aman like you he calls and communicates frequentl and would do anything to see you? well it true....how pleasantly true!!
on a different foot...since i will be doing Women and the law as the first papaer and there are no precedents to guide me...i will be writing something on women to help me analyse how well am doing in my reading and understanding.To day law is concerned with relationships ,relationships are an expression of power hence law is both an instrument of oppression on women and a machinery of empowerment for them!
my Tac class has started hence i have to go. This was really nice.Heb 4:16 let us then approach the throne of Grace with confidence, so that we may recieve mercy and find Grace to help us in our time of need

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am sure you are all wondering why the angela jolie pics? well am not a fan...in fact i think she is despicable...but i want to talk about Bathsheba whom i am also not a fan of.....am reading lineage of grace by Francine Rivers. I am a very judgmental person coz i just cannot empathize or sympathize with Bathsheba.....i don't think she alone was the one to blame but to me no excuse could be good enough for her conduct....when i first did a bible study of Rahab as a presentation..i really could relate with her,...am not a prostitute but for some reason i could live with her tale while as for Bathsheba...truth be told the first time i read about her when i was about 10years old...i detested her..for what kind of a woman was this....hence my saying am very judgmental....the only reason i took note of her was because from as far as i could remember i would read the story of David over and over....it fascinated me so much..from when i was 9years old reading my yellow book titled "my book of bible stories"...and whatever David did i could forgive or excuse...cz to me he was so fascinating and later on absorbing his passion for God endeared him to me..while Bathsheba was like a fly to be whisked off or ignored. I read her story as retold by Francine rivers,....its not an easy story to read...i don't want to do the bs part but i will have to....in the book it shows her as having loved David from when she was a kid and hence excusing it all...to me that doesnt wash...last week i was watching Gilmore Girls....a show i ADORE....when they showed how Rory slept with Dean...and she was saying how he was hers first a and he wasnt happy with the wife hence it excused whatever they did....at first i kinda got where she was coming from....yaani i love that show so much..that when it ended with her weeping...i went to bed so sad....weird thing i could understand where she is coming from and still be able to say its wrong but with bathsheba...even writing her name is hard...i dont like her...i mean her hubby died cz of what she and david did..and in the book it says he knew...imagine the pain and betrayal he felt....i know we are human and prone to sin...but i dont know why i am so harsh in my jugement of this woman....after all i am a sinner and have done so many awful things that am equally deserving judgement but its just how i feel....it made me think of alot of situations....we are all vulnerable....now we use petty excuses to justify whats wrong.....we choose the easy road instead of the right way....easy,convenient,faster and more comfortable does not always mean or equate right.
I am very judgmental...isee things in such black and white,,,,but mostly in ternms of others what about me? what if God chose to use that yardstick?where would i be?i need to learn mercy....thinking about paul...yaani iwas so repulsed by evrything he said that night that i couldnt bear to think iever thought i liked him....all i could think was you messed up person...you person under sexual bondage...depart from me...well whats the christian way?i wont lie...am not planning to be his bossom buddy...God in His word says that in leading the sinful brother be careful not to fall in the same pitfall...butin my view of him..i could show mercy..i could pray for him knowing that in God's eyes that's still his son.
I need to learn mercy even as i am enetering into more leadership roles for servanthood is not about lording people but understanding them and influencing them towards the vision. As i meditate on bathsheba...i ask God to teach me..for honestly it was a hard story to read.am out

my dad just called me that i have passed my cpa(k).its finally over....its funny i thought i would scream...jump up and down but since iwas talking to him on the phone walking to school i couldnt very well. I am so happy yet looking at me one would think its just another ordinary day. God has been so good to me since i sat the first exam in dec 2003....i had to take a break and redo sec 4 but all in all Jehova is awesome.
Today i woke up with such a deep longing for God and went on to have QT and am just jazzed. yaani am overwhelmed al write more later.

Another favourite artiste is nichole nordeman so you will be seeing alot of her lyrics on my blog...but i guess thats why its mine. 'Holy' was the first song i heard from nichole but when i took time to listen to 'HEALED" and 'I AM " lets just say i was blown away. If for some reason i die right now...i would love I AM to be played in my funeral...usually am not a morbid person...but that song speaks of a life journey and its a testimony of who God has been and still is in my life.

Pencil marks on a wall
I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed,
You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose,
You watched when my bicycle went down again,

CHORUS:
And When I was weak unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero,
come if You can,” and You said “I am”

Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again

CHORUS:
When I was weak, unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper,
be my Best Friend” and You said “I am”

You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight,
I said forever to what lies ahead
two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
too much it might seem when it’s two AM

CHORUS:
when I am weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,
hold on to my hand,” and You say “I am.”

The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home

CHORUS:
I will be weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and
the End, I am, yes, I am.”
[I Am Lyrics on
http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]
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When all is said and done...when all the winds blow and cease,when all the upheavals in life come and go,when all the success i ever wish for come or fail to come,,,,,when all the people in my life come and go...when all is said and done...God isall i need....i guess Bethany Dillon sings it best...
"All I Need"

When the day is done
And there's no one else around
While I'm lying here in bed
You're in my heart, You're in my head
You're all I need, You're all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You're the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear

You are all I need when I'm surrounded
You are all I need if I'm by myself
You fill me when I'm empty
There is nothing else
You're all I need

When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There's a fire in my bones
I'm not afraid to go alone
You're all I need
You're all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You're still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You're all I need
You're all I need

I'm drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You
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i am in a fellowship cum bible study and it really challenged us as to what position God occupies in our lives.....yaani the many things that despite the years that av spent with God,i still try to control.Every year at the end i evaluate the whole year that was thus leading to new commitments in the new year.....the past year was an anomaly which extended to the present. i dint evaluate the previous year nor did i make any resolutions for this year....but when sanity finally came in my country and the realisation that God was sovereign in all circumstances i decided that two songs would guide me in my walk this year...that periodically i would check whether my life was as i had promised God.....
The first is HOLY by Nichole Nordeman...
How many roads did I travel
Before I walked down one that led me to You?
How many dream did unravel
Before I believed in a hope that was true?
How long? How far?
What was meant to fulfill only emptied me still
And all You ever wanted…

Only me on my knees
Singing holy, holy
And somehow
All that matters now is
You are holy, holy

How many deaths did I die
Before I was awakened to new life again?
How many half truths did bear witness to
‘Til the proof was disproved in the end?
How long? How far?
What was meant to illuminate shadowed me still

And all You ever wanted…
All I have is gratitude to offer You
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today has been a day of lyrics.....but this one is the last one....many artistes have sang it but i like the version by kathryn scott best....if by the end of the year my life would have borne testimony as this song goes then to me its been a successful year.....

Blessed be Your name in the land that is plentiful,
Where Your streams of abundance flow,
Blessed be Your name.

Blessed be Your name,
When I'm found in the desert place,
Though I walk through the wilderness,
Blessed be Your name.

Every blessing You pour out on, turn back to praise.
And, when the darkness closes in, Lord, still I will say,

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.

Blessed be Your name,
When the suns shining down on me,
When the world's all as it should be,
Blessed be Your name.

Blessed be Your name,
On the road marked with suffering,
Lord, there's pain in the offering,
Blessed be Your name.

Every blessing You pour out on, turn back to praise.
When the darkness closes in, Lord, still I will say,

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.
Oh,
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.

You give and take away.
You give and take away.
My heart will choose to say,
Lord, blessed be Your name.

God, You give and take away.
Oh, You give and take away.
My heart will choose to say,
Lord, blessed be Your name,

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be the name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your name.
I choose to say,
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name,
Blessed be Your glorious name.

You give and take away.
God, You give and take away.
My heart will choose to say,
Lord, blessed be Your name

God, You give and take away.
You give and take away.
My heart will choose to say,
Lord, blessed be Your name

Oh, You give and take away.
You give and take away.
My heart will choose to say,
Lord, blessed be Your name

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.

Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord,
Blessed be Your glorious name.
Blessed be Your name.
[Blessed Be Your Name Lyrics on

Last year my cousin brought me the best gift hat he has given me in years....music...a whole variety of it.I really begun to appreciate the songs when all i had was myself and my thoughts to keep me company. Below are some lyrics to some of my favourite songs that i would listen to as i walked in my neighbourhood trying to figure out if it would ever get better...or if tomorrow would ever come.

The first is by bethany dillon who has become a favourite. Its called beautiful.When i started this blog the first entry was about hating on wachira......lets just say that at some point last year he really meant alot and i thought things would go differently but alas like a double edged sword he also caused me alot of doubts....at some point i wondered if i would ever be enough.....enough everything......beautiful enough,intelligent enough,mature enough,funny enough,kind enough....and it wasnt just coz of him that i wondered all these but rather cz of where i was at that point in my life. So the line that goes.....i used to be so unique...now am only skin deep....well it says alot...but Thank God...i realized that...my circumstance does not define me.....trials dont come to test my faith but rather to teach me faith!!
"Beautiful"

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

[Chorus]
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory

[Chorus]

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful