I feel so weary....A time like this last year I was planning the launch of our styling business. I felt elated and excited that finally I was doing something about my dreams and not just complaining about the state of my life.

Right now I feel defeated. Weary. down. I feel I've knocked on so many doors. Started on so many paths to fin them dead ends.

My faith in God is not in question but rather my faith in my decisions.

So I have decided to hang up my shoes and go back.

It hurts and all I feel like doing is curling up somewhere and wishing away this joke that is my life.

I do not know what next but hopefully this is not the end of my story. I honestly believe in these eight months I gave it all I had.