Today is a good day and the week started well. I saw a petroleum job advert that may be a good fit for me.  I applied for it and it just gave me a positive energy. I levelled with this guy who initially I thought could be a prospect. I am just not that attracted to him to overlook these irritating things he keeps doing. We were to meet after my exams but I just can't stand it any more. I was very polite and respectful. I  don't think it has really hit him but I feel relieved. The are two songs from Rebecca Ferguson whose lyrics just caught my attention even as I was reading for my paper: Fighting suspicions and Wonderful world

1. Fighting Suspicions

Isn’t it amazing what a lonely heart will have you do
Just when you think you’re getting wiser
Somebody comes along, and you’re stuck like glue
Isn’t it amazing what a lonely heart will have you do

He lays my flaws before me
He says I’m blind I can’t see
He makes me feel unworthy
Shapes the rules, I’m a fool if I take the lead

But tell me someone who never lied to themselves
Who never ran through hell, just to find love
Just to hold love
And it wasn’t enough, it’s amazing
So amazing

Fighting suspicions, lady's intuitions
Why, I don’t need it, 'cause it’s not what I want to hear
So I put you on my altar, crown you like a sultan
And praise you for every lie that drips from your lips

Fighting suspicions, lady's intuitions
Why, I don’t need it, no it’s not what I want to hear
So I put you on my altar, crown you like a sultan
And praise you for every lie that drips from your lips

What would you do, what would you do?
What would you do?
Wasn’t enough, it’s amazing
So amazing,

Fighting suspicions, lady's intuitions
Why, I don’t need it, 'cause it’s not what I want to hear
So I put you on my altar, crown you like a sultan
And praise you for every lie that drips from your lips

And he pulls you down, he pulls you down

Isn’t it amazing what a lonely heart will have you do
Just when you think you’re getting wiser
Somebody comes along and you’re stuck like glue
Isn’t it amazing what my lonely heart will have me do.

2. Wonderful Life

(Verse)
I act like it’s not cold, it’s warm
Take back my curtains that have been drawn
Pretend all my bills have been paid
They’ve been okay for days

(Verse)
I smile through the door
Don’t worry about any storm
Not everyone will love me
But I’m not scared to try

(Chorus)
And I dream of a better life
And I’ll find what makes me smile
I’m not there but give me time
Let me say that, let it float through my hurt
Found a good worth day and I’m digging through my dirt
And I’m watching as the colors light the earth
Thinkin what a wonderful world
Yea, thinkin what a wonderful world

(Verse)
Scrape off my head, I don’t mess it
Black mascara from my eyes
Put on my brave face
The kind that tells I’m alright

(Verse)
I laugh when they’re not near
‘Cause I know the truth
Not everyone will love me
But I’m not scared to try

(Chorus x2)
‘Cause I dream of a better life
And I’ll find what makes me smile
I’m not there but give me time
Let me say that, let it float through my hurt
Found a good worth day and I’m digging through my dirt
And I’m watching as the colors light the earth
Thinkin what a wonderful world
Yea, thinkin what a wonderful world

I’m in a wonderful world