I fear rejection and failure but I can now add loneliness. Gnawing loneliness that eats at your core and erodes your confidence. It's the fuel behind manic activities. Anything to avoid its presence yet even in the midst of all that activity it latches on silently awaiting to speak when the activities stop as they eventually must or for a lull in your self delusion to remind you that you are not successful in dislodging it. In my 3rd year in uni I experienced this kind of loneliness and when it finally released me I prayed fervently that it would forever forget me alas unforgettable me is right back...no one can make it go away ..
.so I have to sit it out
As I said table for one
Always for one