I keep meaning to blog about my party and all the drama fun and insanity that went down...but as ever i don't get the time even now i cant say i will.
I can definitely say i had mad fun like nothing and i am glad i threw that party and most people who came had crazy fun. The only downside was i acquired some stalker...ok fine a guy i know but who decided he was being possessive..The song that comes to mind is one by Tracy Chapman
Say I have known some
Less than I should
Say I have known some
Too well for my own good
Say I´m a saint of mercy
Say I´m a whore
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours

I wear my mama´s dress
Her finest clothes
Daddy showed me outside
To meet you on the front porch
I laugh at all your jokes
But you look bored
I´ve been a lot of things but never yours

You never cross my mind
You can be sure
You´ll never catch my eye
Waiting for you watching the door
I let you hold me
Dry lip kiss me on the dance hall floor
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours

Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours
Never yours

So you say you won
It was a bet
A game of pool or cards
I repay my family´s debt
I let you lie beside me
With no remorse
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours


Say I have known some
Less than I should
Say I have known some
Too well for my own good
Say I´m a saint of mercy
Say I´m a whore
I´ve been a lot of things
But never yours

Dude will get his own post whether it will take me one year to get time to blog about him...i will blog about him nonetheless..the biggest lesson i learnt was that this casual relationships or arrangements are not for me....this time i was lucky i was the party that was so detached and wanting to get away..what if it were the other way around...i shudder to think

I also learnt that i can still finish with a guy in a manner that conveys the fact that i want out and i am not changing my mind yet still leave the person with their dignity intact...this particular guy really pushed it..but i can honestly say i was fair....

A lesson that i have always known but have thought of doubting was my cynicism when it comes to men..especially men who feel that they are charmers....if your first reaction is not to trust them..do not trust them even if they are on the verge of tears...even they cry.....i for one do not know what to do with a man in tears....but never believe them....i almost believed one..only to learn how he was playing a game....there i was wasting my pity on a scoundrel....

A good thing happened a few weeks back...i realized that some spell that some dude had me under for years was broken...and what relief....
The downside is am now getting under the spell of another friend whom i have gotten close to.....and i thought turning 25 meant less drama...

I had no reason for this post but i miss blogging...this wasn't for people who follow this blog..but rather for me....
Mostly its to get away from the irony of my life...i am never yours you psycho....no matter how long you pursue me..never yours.yet my dear friend,you has done nothing to pursue me, i want to be yours yet you cant understand that...am out