From the last post things looked dire..but i went back to God and HIS WORD reassured me....
the situation is not solved but i am trusting God,,,,,
nway this post as the title says...whats in a question...my boyfriend likes asking me ALOT of questions..at times i feel we ought to switch careers...but he says he does so to know me better and to understand me,,,he says in this serious voice that he has purposed to understand me.....to me its sweet and abit amusing....but i get it..but he doesnt just ask me frivolous questions at times...MOST TIMES he asks me very difficult questions....i talk alot but there are stuff its like getting water out of a rock to get me to talk about....
so nway yesterday as we were talking on the phone he says taht usually when i get to this heart stuff i usually start talking at superspeed as if i want to get over the ordeal....he is so perceptive...so i say i know i do that at times but its because there are some stuff which make me feel vulnerable,,,and so i just rush thru them hoping i can get back to comfortable topics....nway he said he gets that in away but it doesnt excuse it...etc...so nway thsi is me saying how i talk in stages...so he laughs...nway later he asks me WHAT IS HAPPINESS TO YOU?si i say what does that mean?the law student in me?He says exactly what it says?(does this remind anyone of a courtroom?)..so i say thats an ambiguous question....so he says am being evasive and refusing to answer...nway i could tell that he actually wanted an answer..but i was also not going to answer such an open ended question...i mean DOES ANYBODY OUT THERE FEEL ME ON HOW OPEN THIS QUESTION IS?...so he say how do you define happiness...so i say thats the same question in a different wording....i was being really stubborn....nway i said unless he wants me to answer as equally vaguely with an ans like happiness is joy...thats stupid,,,so to avoid him getting extremely irritated which i could tell he was..i said he should answer the question then ad get an idea of how to answer it..i thought he wouldnt answer....he did immediately..as inhe said to him happiness...is me and him working...having me as his bride,,,,,raising a family together,,getting a satisfying job and being in right relationship with God...yaani iwas there like wawawaw we were actually having a serious conversation..this question wasnt just a by the way....so i told him i really hadnt expected an ans..but since he has i will give him feedback later..he wasnt too jazzed but all i could think ...my answer will matter to him and if i give a flip answer...he will be hurt or he will fell let down..those times when you say sth very important to you and they dont appreciate the importance you attch to it....
so this is me trying to think of what happiness me ans to me.....
ofcourse i wont write my reply here...sorry for all the nosy people...but ad like feedback on what happiness means to the people who read this blog....
not related but below are the lyrics to a song i heard like twice and av been searching for..its so profound....
Artist: Casting Crowns
Song: Stained Glass Masquerade
Album: Lifesong
Is there anyone that fails?
Is there anyone that falls?
Am I the only one in church today, feeling so small?
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong
So I tuck it all away
like everything's ok
If I make em all believe it
Maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin
I'll play the part again
So everyone will see me
The way that I see them
I we happy plastic people
under shiny plastic steeples
with walls around our weakness
and smiles that hide our pain
but the invitations open
To every heart that's been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who's been there?
Are there any hands raised?
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage?
The performance is convincing
And we know every light in my heart
Only when noone is watching can we really fall apart
But would it set me free
If i dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
You imagine me to be
Or would your eyes be opened
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay?
Chorus 2x
if the invitations open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone that fails?
Is there anyone that falls?
Am I the only one in church today, feeling so small?