Divine creativity equals unusual me

That was my 2016 gmail tagline. I started that year quite uncertain and unsure yet I was determined I would keep taking the next step regardless of the fact that most days I barely knew if there was even a path.

2017 reaffirmed two key areas. I finished my diploma in oil and gas passing with distinction and I got confirmed at work.

I spent most of today house hunting and if you need to learn a bit more about yourself go house hunting :) I have seen several possibilities but I am convinced my house is still out there.

My dad called me a few days ago while I was out of town with a possible oil and gas lead that may be out of this country. I was working on the application today and being a blind one it was tough. Again it was a study into myself. Both processes for some reason made me feel vulnerable but I guess in a good way. I felt that for the latter part of last year I was just coasting through life. I want to be a  full participant in my life this year.

The weekend was another lesson into friendship, grace, generosity and patience. I have such clarity as regards where I want to be and the fact that for sure by year end I will be in a much improved position in all areas of my life.

Tomorrow I resume work and I must say I am mentally and emotionally refreshed.

My 2017 tagline so far has been 'feed your focus while you starve your distractions'

Today is my birthday and I decided to read one of the blogs I frequent Marc and Angel .These twelve tenets are things I'd like to keep in mind in the coming year and hopefully live a life less ambivalent.

1. Choosing YOU. – Wearing a mask wears you out.  Faking it is fatiguing.  The most exhausting activity is pretending to be who you know you aren’t.  No matter how loud their opinions are, they do not choose who YOU are.  Choose YOU even if nobody else is choosing you.
2. Appreciating what you have. – Sometimes, when you make the most out of what you have, it turns out being a lot more than you ever imagined.  A beautiful day begins with a beautiful mindset.  When you wake up, take a second to think about what a privilege it is to simply be alive and healthy.  The moment you start acting like life is a blessing, I assure you that it will start to feel like one.  Time spent living is time worth appreciating.  Read The Power of Now.
3. Believing in yourself and your dreams. – The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you; it’s when you don’t understand yourself.  Believe in YOU.  Listen to your soul.  Trust your instincts.  Acknowledge your own strengths.  Dream it and dare it.  Do what you are afraid of, and capable of.  Follow your vision.  Know that anything is possible.  Know you CAN.
4. Being positive. – You can’t live a positive life with a negative attitude.  Heaven on Earth is a choice we must make, not a place we must find.  Let every day be a dream you can touch.  Let every day be a love you can feel.  Let every day be a reason to live.  Life is too short to be anything but positive.
5. Taking action. – The happiest and most successful people are usually those who have broken the chains of procrastination, who find satisfaction in doing the job at hand.  They’re full of eagerness, passion, and productivity.  You can be too.  Remember, success in real estate is about location, location, location.  Success in life is about action, action, action.  ReadGetting Things Done.
6. Letting go. – The only thing that makes it a big part of your life is that you keep thinking about it.  The biggest step in changing the world around you is to change the world within you.  Don’t cry over the past, it’s gone.  Don’t stress about the future, it hasn’t arrived.  Just live in the present, concentrate on the things you can control, and take one small step at a time.
7. Picking yourself back up. – Where you are in life is temporary; where you end up in life is permanent; how you get from here to there is entirely up to you.  So don’t give up.  Sometimes when things go wrong it’s because they would have turned out worse if they had gone right.
8. Ignoring negative people. – You are not a rug; some people may try to walk all over you, but you don’t have to lie there and take it.  There are seven billion people in the world; don’t waste your time by letting one of them ruin your happiness.  You are good enough, smart enough, beautiful enough, and strong enough.  Somewhere someone is looking for exactly what you have to offer.
9. Staying in touch with close friends and family. – Having somewhere to go is what we call ‘home.’  Having someone to love, who loves us in return, is what we call ‘family.’  Having both is a blessing.  There comes a time in life when you’ll have to leave everything behind for awhile and start something new, but never forget the people who stood by your side, especially your close friends and family who never gave up on you.
10. Making time for fun. – Fun is way underrated.  With all of life’s responsibilities, fun will sometimes seem like an indulgence.  It shouldn’t be.  It should be a requirement.  It’s a happy talent to know how to let loose and play.  People who make it a point play around and have fun are twenty times more likely to feel happy in the long run.
11. Spreading love and kindness. – The amazing thing about life is that you choose what you allow into it and out of it – you choose how things affect you, and how you affect the world.  The happiness surrounding you is greatly affected by the choices you make every day.  So choose to spread love and kindness to a least one person a day.  Imagine the amount of happiness you would create in a lifetime if you did.  Read The Happiness Project.
12. Being the change you want to see in the world. – Don’t tell others how to live; LIVE and let them watch you.  Practice what you preach or don’t preach at all.  Walk the talk.  The people who look up to you will likely emulate your actions and strive to become who you are; so BE who you want them to be

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere, I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere, I would have followed you
Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something




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wow its been so long...yet it seems i didn't suffer from withdrawal symptoms. Our net has been down hence mail is all i have been able to check seeing as am a job seeker of some sort.
I saw some research job which sounds interesting,pays really well(five zeros) and is with a good organization. I really want this job so bad that i have managed to freeze my want till today.Tomorrow is the deadline and i am working on my resume today. It took me much time to work on my CV while i was still in uni and most people say its among the best..but seeing as it has not landed me the jobs i want....OK to be fair it does get me to the interview skills...but i have decided to redo my whole resume,,,who knows..i even sought help from all sorts of quarters.I am the first to admit that my application letters have not been the best in fact its one of the things i hate writing but i got some tips and hopefully i will have superb letters.
I HATE government institutions in this stupid country....especially the bureaucracy involved...my mum works for the government and after seeing all the crap involved..i swore to myself that i would stay clear of it like the plague. Our company had two contracts with one of the government parastatol. I worked really hard in drafting and redrafting those contracts which kept being brought back for amendments and finally after two months they signed the contract and service was started in both the kitchen and laundry department...its time to pay for the first quarter and these stupid idiots don't want to pay with flimsy excuse after flimsy excuse..and when all else fails they fall on the all worn out excuse that they need a further explanation on how the contracts operates or the prices are too high.Imbeciles...they made us explain each and every phrase on that contract...add conditions etc and now suddenly they do not understand it...i don't know why a majority of people do not understand 5that a contract is executed the moment the parties sign and not whether payment has been made or not...i really admire my dad coz he has such patience with these morons or thick heads as he calls them...we discovered that what the people want particularly one fellow is to be bribed..something we refuse to do...we did superb work for them..why should we bribe you to pay us?i hate them i hate them..we really need the cash inflow is its a lot of money. i think that working for my dad these 6 or so months has really opened my eyes as to the reality of business...it really needs nerves of steel. Karl Marx said that for the bureaucrat the world is a mere object to be manipulated by him.

On another note my friend was so amused when we reminded her of what she was saying as regards only settling for guys who can make you come...i tell u the things you say when you are high.I went with a couple of Friends to OLEPOLOS....weirdly enough i have never graced this place...it was a nice drive though they made us wait for the meat for like hours..we were so famished..i felt really bad for the guys...seeing as men have such appetites,,,,they way dudes eat should be like some wonder of the world. My small brother who used to be begged to eat now devours food at a rate that leaves one wondering if its the last meal he is partaking.He is finally closing school and coming home this weekend i am sure my mother must be thrilled.

I keep losing my passion for work then regaining it..then losing it..its like some yo-yo game...its not funny.Yesterday i took the whole day off and just watched telly at home from morning till night.Bliss but now i am back...but i cant complain idleness is not my thing.

I was a t a party recently and we got talking about different things and the topic of flings came up...as more and more people talked i realized that we each have our definition of what a fling is...i wondered if it is possible to have a fling without having sex with the other person..shall we call them flingee?....and i would so love to hear from someone who has had a fling.Some of the feedback i got was that its a bad a idea to have a fling with a friend as it complicates stuff and may end up badly..but then again the question raised how do u let in a stranger....musings that's all let me get back to my resume redo.