Divine creativity equals unusual me

Today is a good day and the week started well. I saw a petroleum job advert that may be a good fit for me.  I applied for it and it just gave me a positive energy. I levelled with this guy who initially I thought could be a prospect. I am just not that attracted to him to overlook these irritating things he keeps doing. We were to meet after my exams but I just can't stand it any more. I was very polite and respectful. I  don't think it has really hit him but I feel relieved. The are two songs from Rebecca Ferguson whose lyrics just caught my attention even as I was reading for my paper: Fighting suspicions and Wonderful world

1. Fighting Suspicions

Isn’t it amazing what a lonely heart will have you do
Just when you think you’re getting wiser
Somebody comes along, and you’re stuck like glue
Isn’t it amazing what a lonely heart will have you do

He lays my flaws before me
He says I’m blind I can’t see
He makes me feel unworthy
Shapes the rules, I’m a fool if I take the lead

But tell me someone who never lied to themselves
Who never ran through hell, just to find love
Just to hold love
And it wasn’t enough, it’s amazing
So amazing

Fighting suspicions, lady's intuitions
Why, I don’t need it, 'cause it’s not what I want to hear
So I put you on my altar, crown you like a sultan
And praise you for every lie that drips from your lips

Fighting suspicions, lady's intuitions
Why, I don’t need it, no it’s not what I want to hear
So I put you on my altar, crown you like a sultan
And praise you for every lie that drips from your lips

What would you do, what would you do?
What would you do?
Wasn’t enough, it’s amazing
So amazing,

Fighting suspicions, lady's intuitions
Why, I don’t need it, 'cause it’s not what I want to hear
So I put you on my altar, crown you like a sultan
And praise you for every lie that drips from your lips

And he pulls you down, he pulls you down

Isn’t it amazing what a lonely heart will have you do
Just when you think you’re getting wiser
Somebody comes along and you’re stuck like glue
Isn’t it amazing what my lonely heart will have me do.

2. Wonderful Life

(Verse)
I act like it’s not cold, it’s warm
Take back my curtains that have been drawn
Pretend all my bills have been paid
They’ve been okay for days

(Verse)
I smile through the door
Don’t worry about any storm
Not everyone will love me
But I’m not scared to try

(Chorus)
And I dream of a better life
And I’ll find what makes me smile
I’m not there but give me time
Let me say that, let it float through my hurt
Found a good worth day and I’m digging through my dirt
And I’m watching as the colors light the earth
Thinkin what a wonderful world
Yea, thinkin what a wonderful world

(Verse)
Scrape off my head, I don’t mess it
Black mascara from my eyes
Put on my brave face
The kind that tells I’m alright

(Verse)
I laugh when they’re not near
‘Cause I know the truth
Not everyone will love me
But I’m not scared to try

(Chorus x2)
‘Cause I dream of a better life
And I’ll find what makes me smile
I’m not there but give me time
Let me say that, let it float through my hurt
Found a good worth day and I’m digging through my dirt
And I’m watching as the colors light the earth
Thinkin what a wonderful world
Yea, thinkin what a wonderful world

I’m in a wonderful world

I cannot believe that I used to write and i seemed to have forgotten how to.....out of neglect....SO YEAH MY LIFE IS A MESS....AGAIN

unemployed.

AGAIN.

Three men have managed to stand me up the past few weeks. Three men who were allegedly hotly pursuing me.

Steve.

Robert

Mucheru

I am sick of it.


and yes i somehow slapped my friend at my party...


obviously I am a well adjusted individual...NOT

It's NOT supposed to be this hard...slowly but surely it frays a little more.

Usually i wouldnt post forwards but this one is important. I sent iit to a close friend of mine some time back and she sent it back to me today and i realized that it says alot of things which we all need to know as ladies...so there can never be too much education..especially on these creatures called men....incidentally as iwas reading one of the books on women and the law i came across an interesting quote. "Human beings are animals,albeit of a certain kind" it just amused me....anyway i digress.....fwd or no fwd whoever who wrote the words below hit it on the nail.


IF A MAN WANTS YOU



If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has
more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord!? If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships..........................there is nothing cute about
baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists
of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr.. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your
always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another
RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.
BY THE WAY, THIS WAS WRITTEN BY A MAN, SO TAKE A HINT..............

This is another unstructured post but this being my blog....who gives a penny? I have been so busy trying to beat deadlines for my term papers....i only have two left and they are due a week after my last paper so it lets me concentrate on my exams.i keep looking at the last post and laughing cz its like the wind...now its here....then its gone....i actually watched the episode from which that picture of lorelai and luke were taken...interesting....as one of my closest pals said juzi...men are from pluto!...leave a room wide open for them to enter...they hesitate or they refuse to enter...shut the dooor and sudennly its imperative that they enter that room!That said there is a room i shut and suddenly someone seems curious...its laughable....well another possibility has entered the equation..and you know what they say....bygones are bygones.
I finally realized that given time i could become a football addict....on sunday i was to go on a date where ver i would like and i found myself saying lets go somewhere where we can watch the manu game!!This was me!!!not being coerced or blackmailed or cajoled!!no i really wanted to watch the match...so dude agreed...and no i wasnt doing it to impress the dude...i dint even know he likes football till he started cheering for man-useless!needless to say i had a ball!! you should have seen us laughing like children and we still talked as wewatched the game....yaani when i saw the three goals i just thought...now we will never cath up...imagine i really cared!But i couldnt watch the arsenal game as we had to have a real date before i headed home...but mani had a fab weekend...and no pressure...which reminds me...why do people do group dates???eeich!! i so do not get those things.....one of my friends was so pissed last week when she met this dude and he was with his pals who one who was with his chic....apparently she thought it would be just the two of them..!I was telling her you teach people how to treat you and you. as the girl sets the pace and tone of the relationship or dating game...what do u mean you ask me to meet you and i get you with your pals and i wasnt informed?Rubbish!i told her that all these dudes i had told her about...there is none that that she had nver met..not coz am one of hose perpetually insecure chics who need intrigues to keep a dude...but coz i organise my life,friends and dudes in a mannerthat works for me..when it istime for my gals then its their time...when its time for my uni pals...time for my back-then pals...my highschool pals...church pals..tight pals....acquatances....dudes am seeing etc....why should they mingle...if they happen to meet cool ...but otherwise am perfectly comfortable when tnhey stay in compartments....moreover..there is no dude who has ever pulled a stunt like that on me....yaani i would just walk out....if we agreed that iwas to meet your pals then its cool. My friend then went on to say how this always happens and more so with one of this dude's pals...even when they are alone on a date..he keps calling teling the guy how they should meet etc!i was just sitting there in shock!Like what crap is that? Either you want to be with me or you dont!You organise your life well to make time for me and time for your boys! When iwas in high school i dated this guy was in this crew...all i'd ever hear is "me and my boys"...i got so sick and tired of that phrase thjat i promised myself NEVER AGAIN! and am glad i kept that promise...What nonsense!!

i am doing exams next week ! So it means marathon reading!You know how they say that if aman like you he calls and communicates frequentl and would do anything to see you? well it true....how pleasantly true!!
on a different foot...since i will be doing Women and the law as the first papaer and there are no precedents to guide me...i will be writing something on women to help me analyse how well am doing in my reading and understanding.To day law is concerned with relationships ,relationships are an expression of power hence law is both an instrument of oppression on women and a machinery of empowerment for them!
my Tac class has started hence i have to go. This was really nice.Heb 4:16 let us then approach the throne of Grace with confidence, so that we may recieve mercy and find Grace to help us in our time of need

i finally have own blog..ok i have several of them but this one will be frequently updated. By the way as the title suggests its mad ramblings about me,myself and i....ofcourse and all the drama that is ever in my life!Finally somewhere i can hate on wachira Paul Gitahi. Yanni dude you win...i thot i was a pro in mental i guess i met my match...but your loss in the end...the poem below says it best:


what you lost


Nip a small thing in the bud
Never show your hand
Fancy yourself a Romeo
Fade out on the sand

Find yourself a rainbow
Carry a wooden cross
Sell yourself to alter-worlds
Make them your albatross

Cry out your need daily
Never trust and never give
Follow along a darkened path
Be afraid to live

I followed you through altitudes
As though you were the light
Your masquerade, your cheap façade
Your victims in the night

Don’t cover me with roses now
Don’t tell me of your ache
I learned your lessons well enough
It’s time for me to take

I take my stand, I take my breath
My footprints on this shore
To me you were the only one
To me you are no more

San LLo