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Walk towards me
I want to hear
The heavens singing over you
When you breathe
And look at me
I want to be captured by you

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

I want to hide
What’s deep in my eyes
I’m scared to be known by you
But when I turn my head
And see you there
I want to be pursued

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

A dream I won’t wake from
A story that will never end
The ground your feet walk on
Let me be there, let me be there

Gaze into my eyes
Let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

Gaze into my eyes
Let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Ask me for my love


I was listening to this song by Bethany Dillon either last week or beginning of this week and it just hit me that it so expressed what am feeling and experiencing.J if i could write you a letter right from my heart the words of this song would say it best...knowing that i can never let you read this blog...and that for me its TOO TOO TOO SOON to tell you these words.....i express them in safety yet also with a hope that one day i can look into your eyes and say them confidently and happily.....sometimes i get the feeling that you dont think am in for the long haul....that i will bail out on you....for now i cant reassure you more than i have nad only time will reveal how much my love is worth. I know that silently i ask for heaven and you say you are ready to give beyond that which i ask.....i told you that i know that what we have is worth fighting for and that to me you are worth doing all that i have never attempted to do....You make me believe that all i have been waiting for is finally here and that my imagination did not even capture how good it can be...as the song says just ask me.....for my love.......am scared to be known by you yet am thrilled at the prospect of spending each and every day of my life with you...i cant imagine not having you in my life in any way.....a story that will never end.

I'm so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
I'm so scared of letting go
That the pain I've hid will show

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]
I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I'm afraid that
You will leave
As my secrets
Have been revealed
In my dreams
You'll always stay
Every breathing moment from now

I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
I'll never stop

[c h o r u s]

I cannot hold back
The truth no more
I let you wait too long
Although it's hard and scares me so
A life without you scares me more

[c h o r u s]
[Last Flight Out Lyrics on
http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

Juzi i was listening to Plus one who are like one of my favourite groups and i have heard the above song like a zillion times especially when am jogging but on this day i just stopped what i was doing and felt like calling J and telling Him......i would love for you to be saying these words to me.....i like where it says that 'i know you want to hear me speak, but if i start to i'll never stop' sometimes you feel that i dont say enough or i keep stuff in...or that you tell me these wonderful stuff that just melt my heart and make me shut up..yet i dont say them back enough....well experience has not taught me the easiest lessons but lessons they have been nonetheless....if we are both right about us then we will have a lifetime to say whatever we want to each other.you say that i always sound happy and into you...and sometimes you wonder if its true and real....if you would have known me my whole life you could have easily realized that the cause of my seemingly never ending joy is knowing you.....as the song says i like the hope i see in your eyes..well for now you cant see me...but when you will you will see all that is in my heart before i even utter a word

Dean sherman says that love is a choice...our personality and gift of attraction kinda chooses for us potential people to be attracted to but we choose whom to love.Its true.am out

Last year my cousin brought me the best gift hat he has given me in years....music...a whole variety of it.I really begun to appreciate the songs when all i had was myself and my thoughts to keep me company. Below are some lyrics to some of my favourite songs that i would listen to as i walked in my neighbourhood trying to figure out if it would ever get better...or if tomorrow would ever come.

The first is by bethany dillon who has become a favourite. Its called beautiful.When i started this blog the first entry was about hating on wachira......lets just say that at some point last year he really meant alot and i thought things would go differently but alas like a double edged sword he also caused me alot of doubts....at some point i wondered if i would ever be enough.....enough everything......beautiful enough,intelligent enough,mature enough,funny enough,kind enough....and it wasnt just coz of him that i wondered all these but rather cz of where i was at that point in my life. So the line that goes.....i used to be so unique...now am only skin deep....well it says alot...but Thank God...i realized that...my circumstance does not define me.....trials dont come to test my faith but rather to teach me faith!!
"Beautiful"

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

[Chorus]
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory

[Chorus]

You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful