Divine creativity equals unusual me

You haunt me.....i decide to leave you....at the altar...yet you follow me...almost like a ghost that seeks vengeance.....i plead that you may leave me in peace....i have paid my price and...my actions are ever before me..but even then you still haunt me...i lack words to name you...for with a name we clothe whatever it is we are naming and it comes of of the darkness of the unknown to the light of the known...

You haunt me..yet i have done that which was seemingly impossible....i cut off my very limb...yet why does it feel like it is still there...i did what i thought was right..so where is the vindication ? why this suffering...i want to move ahead yet your tentacles hold me..or am i subconsciously holding on to you..yet each day i wake up..and let you go..and each day...i feel your presence ever firmly in place...i dread the nights for then my mind betrays me....and ventures into lands i want to stay clear of...

I am no longer sure of the very things that were the rocks upon which i stood...you see me so clearly and yet i have to stop seeing you as clearly...the forbidden beckons yet it will destroy me...but i have to wonder if this very struggle will make me lose my mind and in the end destroy me..either way....i lose no matter what i do..or is kit thoughts of you..or rather thoughts of what could have been that shackle me to you..that each time i attempt to escape...i find myself crawling back to the dungeon that is you

Love be kind....love be patient...for another day i must believe you will take another persona...for now you just hurt me.....i cannot trust you...for you have led me to this dungeon..you crept up on me stealthily like a thief..and like a naive village woman i let you in my domain thinking you were friend only to find you out for the foe that you are...you defend yourself that you are on my side...but the pain you have wrought on me...how can you justify that...maybe when i win this war that is ever waging in me..maybe i will hold your hand again in trust...fro he still haunts me

There is a song by Dolly Parton that i heard some weeks back....and i hope to recall it each nad every time i justify the unjustifiable

Artist: Parton Dolly
Song: Don't Let Me Cross Over
Album: Treasures

I'm tempted my darlin' to steal you away
Don't let me cross over, stay out of my way
'Cause you know that I love you and I'm not the stealin' kind
But I'm faced with heartache here at love's cheating line

Don't let me cross over love's cheating line
You belong to another and can never be mine
I know one step closer would be heaven divine
Don't let me cross over love's cheating line

I've tried to forget you but what else can I do
When your eyes keep saying that you want me too
And I know if I lose you not a dream will I have left
I don't want to cheat dear, but I can't help myself

Don't let me cross over love's cheating line
You belong to another and can never be mine
I know one step closer would be heaven divine
Don't let me cross over love's cheating line

Don't let me cross over love's cheating line

Love be gentle, love be kind
As I give this heart of mine
To a new love I hope will never end
It seems like only yesterday
Love was here and went away
Out of love again but now I'm falling in

Chorus:
Fallin' in love again
I'd fallen out but there's no doubt
I'm fallin' in, love again

I know that love won't always last
When you fall in love to fast
I should know better
But here I go again

Love be strong, love be true
For what else can I do
Love is calling and I know I'm fallin' in

Chorus:
Fallin' in love again
I'd fallen out but there's no doubt
I'm fallin' in, love again

Chorus:
Fallin' in love again
I'd fallen out but there's no doubt
I'm fallin' in, love again...
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I can see you're disappointed
By the way you look at me
And I'm sorry that I'm not
The woman you thought I'd be
Yes, I've made my mistakes
But listen and understand
My mistakes are no worse than yours
Just because I'm a woman

So when you look at me
Don't feel sorry for yourself
Just think of all the shame
You might have brought somebody else

Just let me tell you this
Then we'll both know where we stand
My mistakes are no worse than yours
Just because I'm a woman

Now a man will take a good girl
And he'll ruin her reputation
But when he wants to marry
Well, that's a different situation

He'll just walk off and leave her
To do the best she can
While he looks for an angel
To wear his wedding band

Now I know that I'm no angel
If that's what you thought you'd found
I was just the victum of
A man that let me down

Yes, I've made my mistakes
But listen and understand
My mistakes are no worse than yours
Just because I'm a woman

No, my mistakes are no worse than yours
Just because I'm a woman
..........................for all who hate country music..you can go hang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111

Artist: Don Williams lyrics
Album: My Heart To You
Year: 2003
Title: I've Got A Winner In You
and this one goes to my love...MUKOTO...
EVEN IF YOU DONT GET TO READ IT...ITS COOL...
I oughta know, what it’s like to loose at love
I’ve done it enough and I oughta know
But then you came my way
And tore away, the fear of pain
I won’t loose again, this time I know

I’ve got a winner in you
No way I can loose
A love I can hold on to
I’ve got a winner in you

I know how it feels, when you try and try again
And then you never win, I know how it feels
Oh but this time around
I’ve finally found what it’s all about
They write songs about, the way that I feel

I’ve got a winner in you
No way I can loose
A love I can hold on to
I’ve got a winner in you

I’ve got a winner in you
No way I can loose
A love I can hold on to
I’ve got a winner in you

Artist: Sixpence None The Richer
Song: Melody of You
you're a painting with symbols deep, symphony
soft as it shifts from dark beneath
a poem that flows, caressing my skin
in all of these things you reside and I
want you flow from the pen, bow and brush
with paper and string, and canvas tight
with ink in the air, to dust your light?
from morning to the black of night

[Chorus]

this is my call I belong to You
this is my call to sing the melodies of You
this is my call I can do nothing else
I can do nothing else

you're the scent of an unfound bloom
a simple tune
I only write variations to sooth the mood
a drink that will knock me down to the floor
a key that will unlock the door
where I hear a voice sing familiar themes
then beckons me weave notes in between
a tap and a string, a bow and a glass
you pour me till the day has passed....

Artist: Maren Ord
Song: Perfect
...THIS IS ONE IS DEDICATED TO SWEETS AND MAD THOUGHTS...LENGA THE LAST VERSE,,,am not that mushy!!!!!1
Don't close your eyes
They may not open
What if they open
Would you be alive

Everyone falls
But not everyone rises
Why don't you get up
And rise again for me

chorus

What if the world were
a little more perfect
Would you stop crying or
would you take the leap
What if the world
were a little more perfect
Would you open your eyes
and blink again for me

What about friendship
What about friends
You said the whole world
was against you
And it all had to end

What about love
What about family
What about all that
you have to live for

chorus

It isn't easy here without you
Why did you leave me
What am I supposed to do
(without you...
Artist: Kendall Payne
Song: Scratch
THIS IS ONE IS TO SCARCITY AND EDWINA....WHO FEEL ME ON THE QUARTERLIFE CRISIS.....AND MISS FOI....TRANSITION WITH ALL ITS DRAMA
It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things
And everyday I wish I was small
I've been counting on nothing
But he keeps giving me his word
And I am tired of hearing myself speak
Do you ever get weary?
Do you ever get weak?
How do you dream
When you can't fall asleep?

I've been wondering what you're thinking
And if you like my dress tonight?
Would you still say you love me
Under this ordinary moonlight?
I'm so afraid of what you'll say.

Chorus
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To giving me a second chance

I used to think I was special
And only I have proved me wrong
I thought I could change
The world with a song
But I have ended up in India
With no lamp to guide me home.
The strangest place I think
I have ever been
And all this time
I thought that we were friends
My stubborn will is learning to bend.

Chorus
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To giving me a second chance

I'd like to know if you'd be open
To starting over from scratch
I'd like to know if you'd be open
To giving me a second chance

It's a big girl world now
Full of big girl things.

Song: Gilmore Girls Theme SongTHIS IS FOR THE GIRL IN ME THAT STILL LIKES HAPPY ENDING MOVIES AND HAS A SOFT HEART BENEATH ALL THAT HARD TOGH EXTERIOR,,,,,AND TO MAMA MBOGZ WHO GETS WHAT AM SAYING....EVEN IF SHE INVOKES THE DENIABILITY CLAUSE
Wanting you the way I do
I only want to be with you
And I would go to the ends of the earth
Cause, darling, to me that's you're worth

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

If you're out on the road
Feeling lonely, and so cold
All you have to do is call my name
And I'll be there on the next train

Where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead

I always wanted a real home with flowers on the windowsill
But if you want to live in New York City, honey, you know I will
I never thought I could get satisfaction from just one man
But if anyone can keep me happy, you're the one who can

And where you lead, I will follow
Anywhere that you tell me to
If you need, you need me to be with you
I will follow where you lead
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THE LAST ONE IS FOR THE MEN WHO LOVE US EVEN WHEN THEY DONT FULLY UNDERSTAND US.....
Artist: Bjork
Song: Human Behavior

if you ever get close to a human
and human behaviour
be ready to get confused

there's definitely no logic
to human behaviour
but yet so irresistible

there's no map
to human behaviour

they're terribly moody
then all of a sudden turn happy
but, oh, to get involved in the exchange
of human emotions is ever so satisfying

and there is no map
and a compass
wouldn't help at all

human behaviour